Mood:  irritated

I thought this whole time that you was only for me and yet I seem to find out that your doing things you have no business doing. I don't know what to do and I'm so confused. You said that you wanna keep going and start over AGAIN. I feel kind of stupid cause I put my heart out on the line again and yet you took it and wrung it out. I guess my heart is really bleeding. I've been put through things and if it wasn't for that I wouldn't have been able to keep my composure. Damn girl why do you do these things to me. You got a good girl and you haven't seen it yet don't worry. I'm so fucking fustrated I don't know if I more fustrated at you or myself but I did say that I was going to give you another chance. I pray to god that you don't disappoint me again cause if you do I don't think my heart can take it. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Commiting is not that hard to do if it's with the right person and I believe that I am that person you can commit to if only you let me in your heart and let down that wall. I don't know how else can I show you that I love you and only you. Can you just please please just open up and let me in I know that its hard but it's been harder to trust you again and I don't make you feel gulity but I feel like crying hearing you say that you've been playing me all over again how much more do you think I can take. I feel like your love was just a lie. I pray to god that I don't start building up a wall around my heart and once it's up your going to have hell to pay trying to take it down again. I want you to show me that you really love me and it seems to come out of your mouth so easily and it scares me.